MKE Week 2 – Why Do People Leave Me to Figure Things Out?

Sitting and reflecting wondering why it seems that people tend to leave me when I get involved in something.

The girl that first introduced me to online affiliate/network marketing left me to figure things out on my own.

The lady that introduced me to the Life Insurance industry, got out and yet again I was left to try to figure things out on my own.

One day I saw a post about my best friend who is now in Real Estate, her mentor recognized her on social media for selling a certain amount of homes within 30 days and I found myself wondering why can’t I have something like that. No, not the public recognition but to feel like someone is in my corner and has my back like that.

Then during my reflection I thought back to something my Mom told me, she said “I don’t have to worry about you, I know that you are going to be Ok”. She also told me that when I was a child, I never asked her to play Dolls with me, I always played and did things independently.

This made me look over my life and realize that I internalized when people left me, it was a sign that I wasn’t worthy. When the truth of the matter is I act like I don’t need people, so it’s assumed that I’m ok.

When I look at the big picture, I am reluctant to reach out when I need help because I don’t want to feel like I’m a bother to someone; and, yes, I’m sometimes too proud to admit that I need and desire support. Some of this is due to trust issues because of things that happened in the past with “help”, but a lot of it is due to me trying to be strong meanwhile suffering in silence. This is a huge breakthrough for me!