Sitting and reflecting wondering why it seems that people tend to leave me when I get involved in something.
The girl that first introduced me to online affiliate/network marketing left me to figure things out on my own.
The lady that introduced me to the Life Insurance industry, got out and yet again I was left to try to figure things out on my own.
One day I saw a post about my best friend who is now in Real Estate, her mentor recognized her on social media for selling a certain amount of homes within 30 days and I found myself wondering why can’t I have something like that. No, not the public recognition but to feel like someone is in my corner and has my back like that.
Then during my reflection I thought back to something my Mom told me, she said “I don’t have to worry about you, I know that you are going to be Ok”. She also told me that when I was a child, I never asked her to play Dolls with me, I always played and did things independently.
This made me look over my life and realize that I internalized when people left me, it was a sign that I wasn’t worthy. When the truth of the matter is I act like I don’t need people, so it’s assumed that I’m ok.
When I look at the big picture, I am reluctant to reach out when I need help because I don’t want to feel like I’m a bother to someone; and, yes, I’m sometimes too proud to admit that I need and desire support. Some of this is due to trust issues because of things that happened in the past with “help”, but a lot of it is due to me trying to be strong meanwhile suffering in silence. This is a huge breakthrough for me!
Thank you Vandolyn! You are OK. Now is the time to look forward and inward and find the gold that is starting to peek through! Glad you are here on this wonderful adventure with us!
Congratulations, Vandolyn, on your breakthrough! Truth is — you are OK. And, you have the benefit of an amazing MasterMind here while you are on your journey.
Vandolyn, way to figure things out. You are growing from within. See you at the top.