OK, I can’t be the only one here that felt this way! So, Week 1 of the MKE we began to learn about the “world without,” and the “world within.” My first thought was that the world without meant a world of scarcity and lacking, but I learned that it actually referred to the world outside of our mind and thought. It is a reflection of our world within, that world of thought, governed by the mind.
I learned that since the world without is a reflection of the world within, I needed to learn to control my mind, (my world within), and in so doing, I would gain control over my circumstances and conditions, my “world without.” The first step was learning to control my body, developing the focus and ability to sit quietly and without any movement. While not easy, I was able to achieve some success with this task.
Then came the hard part. This week, I learned that to control my mind, my world within, I needed to be able to control the thoughts that entered my mind. The exercise here, seemed straight forward. Sit in complete stillness, as before, but this time inhibit ALL THOUGHT. So, think nothing.
Are you kidding??? As soon as I began, my first thought was “Gee, if I am thinking to myself that I am thinking about nothing, does this count as a thought?” I mean it is a thought about nothing, but still a thought. Next I wondered, how can I tell if I am actually inhibiting thought, since I have to look inward to see that I am not thinking about anything, and that is thinking about something.
So, for fifteen minutes I sat there thinking to myself that it is impossible for me to think about nothing. I chased one logical squirrel after another. Each “squirrel” a thought that was not supposed to be running around the forest of my mind. I have tried this exercise four times now. Three times, I had the same exasperating experience. My fourth try I fell asleep, so I am counting that as a success. At least I was not aware of my thoughts.
I cannot possibly be the only one running into difficulty with this task. Anyone out there figured out how to inhibit their thoughts? If you have, please share the secret. In the meantime, I will continue to follow the directions, with full faith that eventually I will follow the right squirrel, and he will lead me to my world within.