My subconscious mind is running the show! Not me!
Or at least that is how I understand it.
It is as if I have always been in this never ending battle with myself.
There are things that I want to do, but I don’t do and then there are things that I don’t want to do, but then end up doing…
And then I beat myself up about it… and then I feel crappy, real crappy! … about myself… about life… even about other people!
According to what I have learned so far on this journey is that my subconscious mind cannot reason or distinguish between true and false… soooo, it just gives back what was given to it… by repetition and with feeling…
It seems to me like my subconscious mind runs almost on autopilot according to the flight path that it was programmed with.
Now the questions comes to mind: (that would be to my conscious mind!) Who programmed this flight path?
If repetition and feeling are the two main requirements for programming my subconscious mind, as far as I understand it, then it appears to me that I am definitely responsible for some of the programming. All the things I repeated to myself with all sorts of different emotions… some good and some unfortunately not so good…
However, truth be told, some of the programming was most certainly done by others… sometimes by loved ones… and not in a loving way at all… sad, but true…
This brings me back to self examination! And to the ever elusive question: who am I?
It appears to me that I get to chose the answer to the question…
I first need to figure out what it is that I want to do with my life and then I need to compare that to what is currently programmed in my subconscious mind and then I need to change any discrepancies.
In principle this sounds easy, but it clear to me that it is going to take time and hard mental labor.
Time for a cliché: Rome wasn’t built in a day…
However, they were building every day! Little by little! Brick by brick!
So there it is! Time for me to rebuild me! Little by little! Every day!
To the unfolding of me…
cheers to the unfolding of you indeed ! – just another brick… and another .. & another. You’re on the way – let that subby of yours know what you want
Yes, Gerhard, you decide to make change by adopting and maintaining the habits. Easy peasy.
Life is truly an adventure Gerhard! Amazing blog post with all those insights! You are on the right track. Little by little, every day, shipping off old cement and unfolding your true self. Just stay with the habits, trust the process and the voice of your true self are going to be clearer for every day.
Sounds like you are on the correct path Gerhard. “who am I? I will be seeing the man in the mirror when you see him.
What is it that you love to do that in some way serves others? Look deep inside and not too much in your head. The world within holds the answers and you do find it brick by brick by brick….