It has certainly been an interesting few weeks so far with the MKE. Not without a few ups and downs, but I have continued to put effort and faith in this process with the results to be revealed to me later. With some help with my guides, I have found the clarity that a white personality needs to make the movement forward. Decisions have been with a careful, methodical plan, working out the details to infinity and beyond. These decisions, although good, we made in the moment and each one was a independent choice. With the clarity I have now, I realize that these decisions did not always work together and made my life chaotic, because I didn’t have a purpose (or the compass) for direction. Talk about using a magnifying glass to see more clearly!
I know that I like to have all the information in front of me so I can make an informed decision. Working on the DMP was a struggle but I finally got it just right. That is when the light came on and everything was clear. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear has been a quote that I have used over the years. This is where the all the weeks came together and made total sense. I one of my sits, the flash of insight that came to me was I was using an old blueprint, trying to work on the causes – The DMP, blogging and all the work – when the reality was this was the inevitable results of 1 action. That decision was to join the MKE. Since then, I have been able to catch up on all my tasks and can see how everything is so interconnected that I don’t know where one starts, or which comes first. They just are! And that is where the fun is truly starting in understanding me and my decisions.