Last night I was really fighting myself about doing the nightly exercise. “I don’t feel good”, “I have enough to worry about” “I’m stressed” ” I have a headache” .”This weather makes me depressed” … LOL. I would fall asleep and wake up to try and read and fall asleep again.
After a few times doing this, I woke up, got out of bed and ate something. Then went back upstairs and did the exercises. When reading Scroll II, I came upon the “I welcome obstacles, for they are my challenge” sentence. Then something clicked.
It doesn’t matter how I feel about something that I have to do. I just do it. Kicking and screaming like a 5 year old every time I have to do something I don’t want to do, then fighting it, then doing it I think Is part of my peptide cycle. Peptides had enough of me doing well and not listening to them. 😂 And being hard on myself by saying I should be doing better than this isn’t kind. Plus the Holidays are upon us and it’s a huge trigger.
Being kind to others and no opinions keeps me out of my head a lot more, will work toward acceptance of these challenges.