Last night I was really fighting myself about doing the nightly exercise. “I don’t feel good”, “I have enough to worry about” “I’m stressed” ” I have a headache” .”This weather makes me depressed” … LOL. I would fall asleep and wake up to try and read and fall asleep again.
After a few times doing this, I woke up, got out of bed and ate something. Then went back upstairs and did the exercises. When reading Scroll II, I came upon the “I welcome obstacles, for they are my challenge” sentence. Then something clicked.
It doesn’t matter how I feel about something that I have to do. I just do it. Kicking and screaming like a 5 year old every time I have to do something I don’t want to do, then fighting it, then doing it I think Is part of my peptide cycle. Peptides had enough of me doing well and not listening to them. 😂 And being hard on myself by saying I should be doing better than this isn’t kind. Plus the Holidays are upon us and it’s a huge trigger.
Being kind to others and no opinions keeps me out of my head a lot more, will work toward acceptance of these challenges.
Hi Laura, accepting the challenge is the first thing we must observe. You are doing great not letting challenges get in your way of progress.
Brava, Laura, for recognizing a funky pattern that no longer serves you! It’s funny, really, when we discover how we’ve gotten ourselves all wound up in these ridiculous cycles that just keep us stuck. You’re unraveling and releasing energy that you can now use for your conscious creations. Way to go!!
Recording the Scrolls and my DMP on my voice recorder really helps me, especially at night. So does Audible – I bought a recording of the Master Key. Try it – it might help you, too.
~MJ
Sounds like you had quite an epiphany, Laura! Way to go!
Hi Laura and thank you for sharing your journey through into your perseverance…you are aware now, and that is so so awesome. xoxo
Laura, congrats on realizing this peptide addiction! I was feeling like this about two weeks ago…no longer wanting to do the exercises and sits, being grumpy….like you said, subby was saying “I want my old peptides back!” Bravo for your resilience!
Laura, I’d have to say your peptides are a bit peppy. Thanks for your honesty and your quickly submitted Week 10! 🙂
Laura Lynne, thank you for what you wrote. It is almost like you read my mind.
Hey Laura,
Thanks for sharing!! I really related to the challenges struggle and falling asleep and then trying again to no avail. AMAZING JOB!!!! Over coming this, and getting up to move around. What a powerful statement to those peptides. I can be what I will to be!
-Candy