I am feeling quite scared. Like What if? What if I can’t beat mind over matter. I have barely taken those first steps and I am feeling so uncertain on if any of this can even be possible.
What if? What if I decided to close my eyes and walk further out on that dilapidated bridge that by any real observation has no business still being in operation.
What if? What if I just closed my eyes and took one step at a time. It Doesn’t matter if I haven’t been perfect with my new habits. I am doing a great job. I am doing better than I have ever done before. And I am half way enjoying it.
It all comes down to faith, faith that what is in me is enough. I just have to take action. I have to stop stopping short and forging forward like my life depended on it. And in actuality, it does.
This picture reminds me of a picture of the two children being led across a bridge very similar to this one. There is an angel in the picture guiding them. I am thinking these children were given the sense that someone or something was helping them across. This is just like me. How to have faith as a child again. That is what I am praying for.