I’ve always been hard on myself. Once, I burned the dinner I was preparing for my new husband and thought to myself, ‘I’m a terrible wife, I never should have gotten married’. My thought life back then was brutal. And yet, through the years I’ve learned to be a lot more kind to myself. I know that I’m a work in progress. I believe I was truly born for such a time as this.
Fast forward to today. It’s my first day of the Master Key Experience. I did my reading and each piece of the assignments for today. I don’t know what I was expecting but nothing miraculous happened. I know, I need to be patient. However, I tend to overanalyze my experiences which causes issues for my subconscious mind. Ugh.
I feel like I’ve been in a wasteland in my mind, looking across the road at the beauty I know is possible in my life. It’s a daily struggle. I have faith and believe in a God who loves me and has my best interest in mind. I trust Him. And yet, I eventually resist being all that I know I can be.
I’m here because I believe that if I can learn to allow the water to flow across that desert, things will begin to grow and flourish, pushing me forward like an unstoppable river, bringing life to the world around me.