The ever elusive big question: Who am I?
And the twin brother: Why am I here?
Do we ever really find the answer to these two questions?
Or have we had the answers all along?
Now, it is easy to get all philosophical in theory about these questions. Or to find some inspirational quote that give you a warm fuzzy feeling.
But, what do you do when you have built your world around what you thought was your everything and then it gets taken from you? What do you do when you thought you were living your dream, your fairy tail, and all of a sudden it crumbles like a house of cards right in front of you and there is nothing you can do about it, leaving you feeling powerless?
I am only 42 years young, however I never imagined being where I am right now. I got married at 25. By 29 I was the proud father of three beautiful children. Life was perfect and blissful. Or at least so I thought. Long story short. I. Got divorced a little over a year ago. Wifey dearest moved away to another province. Over 600km away! With my children. All of a sudden, I am single and childless. Well, I am still a father, however I don’t see my children as often as I would like to anymore. All of a sudden, I am back to square one. I used to be a husband. Now I am not. I used to an active father involved in my children’s day-to-day lives. Now I am not. Wifey dearest got remarried. Leaving reconciliation as not a very likely possibility. Hence me. Having to find the answers to the opening questions from scratch again.
Now, before this starts to sound like a pity party, let me be clear! I know I’m not the first person to get divorced and I know I’m not the last. I just find it a bid challenging to find my new identity as this is not quite what I planned for my life.
I know that there is still a lot left for me to live for and this MKE journey could not have come my way at a better time. I embrace that I need to dig deep and pick myself up by my own bootstraps. I know that every ending presents a new beginning… see now I’m philosophical and quoting some inspirational person somewhere… I just don’t really know where I’m going… YET!
There is a world within — a world of thought and feeling and power; of light and life and beauty; and, although invisible, its forces are mighty.Charles Haanel, Master Key System 1:6
So, as I understand it, my identity is internal and has always been there… I just need to Let it out… and no matter what has happened and what may happen…
Life is an unfoldment, not accretion. What comes to us in the world without is what wê already possess in the world within.Charles Haanel, Master Key System 1:16
To the unfoldment of me….