Here it is Sunday night, MKE Webinar done, and I continue on my journey to take control of the one within.
Who me, couldn’t be me, is it possible that the world without has such a deep tided knot that every little step I take to get control seems to cinch that knot even tighter, sure seems that way.
I think back to my childhood and then realize I don’t want to go there, it’s over, move on.
Something is keeping me locked inside, but what?
If I know I wouldn’t be here today, I keep thinking.
Something so deeply tied up inside of me that won’t let me push on and escape.
I have a great life, husband, sons, daughter-in-law, and a super doper grandson, a roof over our heads, clothing, and food what else do I really need?
Maybe that is all I need, but then I realize that if my husband were to pass before me, I wouldn’t have enough to continue to live on. I pray that he doesn’t, but we know we can’t rely on that.
So, here I am being the best student, teacher, mentor, and loving person that is stuck in a very deep hole, not seeing any daylight of ever escaping.
As I wrote that I realize that was a negative thought that needs to be corrected.
Tears have come to my eyes several times this week while watching the clip from Karate Kid, even the one they played during the webinar.
Why, what is the meaning of this, where do I see myself going, why is that bothering me?
It’s time for me to take control of the journey from within.
Thank you, Hanalei
Thank you, Dirk
Thank you, Lori
Thank you, Pam
You’ve got this, Wanda! Always such positivity for others. How about some for the very special you.
You’re on the precipice, Wanda! The real you is pushing out… let her fly!
Thank you for sharing Wanda. Cheers to you as you take on your journey within.
It looks like you have a deep understanding of the process you are going through, Wanda. Thank you for sharing your insights again.
Thank you, Arlene
Thank you, Jacqueline
Stay Strong Wanda! There are so many things in life that can get in the way of what we really want and it’s so easy to stay in that hole. I know what that feels like, and I never thought I would. I remembered wanting to get out, but I couldn’t and was addicted to staying in the hole. Stay the course and do the work! Keep your mind too busy to think. you got this!!!!! 🙂
Chip, Chip, Chip away!!! The cement is slowly being removed. Keep moving forward,
Outstanding blog Wanda. Thank you for sharing. Good for you as you are the observer, learning and taking action to work on the world within.
Thank you JJ
Thank you Stefanie
you truly have this & can do it Wanda – just as Julia said, I believe in you too & I am imagining you taking control of the journey from within.
Remember too that tender is the soul in change 🙂
Wanda thank you for sharing your heart so transparently! Not easy to do….but you are facing it and asking the right questions and still seeking! I have often felt so trapped in dark emotions, so you’re not alone! Don’t give up, we are all hear to support you!
Our thoughts are our life, for sure thank you, Brittany.
I love LIFE! thank you Janet
Recognizing you are in a deep hole and have a thought pattern you want to change is a really important part of your awareness and it’s the first step in getting back to the sunlight *hugs*.
Thank you Loren, very much
This is week 4 where we are to be thankful for what we receive. THANK YOU ALL!
Suzette, Thank you
Elena, Thank you
Julia, Thank you
Thank you Wanda. We don’t get control over the Universe but we do get what makes our heart sing, what we are meant to do, To use the fifts that have been given to us to help others find theirs. Enjoy the journey!
Wanda, thank you so much for sharing something so deep and heartfelt. Not easy to do but you shared it.
Not only are you one of the first to comment on the blogs, you are also one of the first…in fact, the first to publish your Week #4 blog! What you describe is being trapped inside a black hole with the event horizon on the outside looking in. This means you survived the perilous journey inward, it also means you have a way out as a part of the energy stream black holes are known to emit. So you see your so-called negative thought is not so negative after all. Journey within to find the next outbound energy stream. Look for a train named energy stream (or something similar), Congrats on being first! 🙂
Wanda, I know exactly how you feel. Just remember, keep on doing the work, and this week, give it your 100%, your own consciousness of 100% right now. Keep up the great work.
“It’s time for me to take control of the journey from within”.
VERY POWERFUL STATEMENT. I believe in you.
You are trusting the process, and soon you master it!
Keep moving forward one step at a time. You’ll reflect back and see your growth.