Struggling To Stay Organized…..Effective Time Management Is Still Somewhat New To Me. See Stuff I Don’t Necessarily Enjoy Doing,Or Isn’t My Natural Strengths, Things I Do Not Have An Inclination To Do Already, Just Not On My Radar…( Usually Responsible Tasks/ Activities That Will Benefit Me) I Resist Doing. Even Things I Do Enjoy Or Are Easy To Do, Yet Cause Me Great Anxiety….Not Sure Why?? Maybe It’s Just The Thought Of Doing Them That Causes The Anxiety, They Never Used To.
I Think This Is My Learned, Subconscious Resistance Showing Up As Procrastination, Indecision, Fear, And Being A Control Freak!!! Often For Years I’ve Stayed Too Busy, Or Angry, Or Depressed To Acknowledge The Real Work That Needed To Be Done…… The World Within.. As Much As I Love This Work And Completely Believe In It , I Still Deal With These Things. These Undesirable Qualities Still Exist Within My Being And Attempt To Occupy My Thoughts. ( Que The Sad Violin Music
Now…..Someone Hand Me A T..T…Tissue Please….)
What Is Happening Though Is That I Have Somehow ( Dual Thought) Been Able To Link Postive, Excited Feelings With Tasks I Am Still Learning To Enjoy (And Ones I Don’t Enjoy, Yet….) Stuff Like Planning, Time Management, Blogging, And Other Stuff That Seems Like “Tasks”. So Then Despite My Resistance, I Still Want To Do It….And If I Don’t Do It , I Think About It Until I Do, Do It!!
I Still Want To Consistently Take Action, I Want To Sacrifice My Weaknesses For Strengths!! I Want To Be All In!! Slowly And Gradually My Resistance Is Lowering And My New Habits Are Building!!!! F**K Yeah!!!!! Evidence Of New “Subby” TakeOver!!!! ( Now If I Could Just Link Feelings Of Awesomeness & Excitement With Lack Of Sleep, Being Annoyed………I’d Be Unstoppable!!!)
I Remain Excited And Grateful!! Unlocking The World Within With The Keys Of Habit!! Or Habits Are The Key To Unlocking The World Within!! So I Have So Much More To Tell You About Becoming Obsessed With Green Triangles And “Do It Now” & My Service Card (And Lack Of Clear, Set Expectations), But Maybe We’ll Save That For Next Week. Until Then…. You Guys Are Forkin’ Awesome And I Love You!!!! Peace!!
It sounds like you’re immersed in the program, Chris. Stay that way and you will not fail. Great blog! 🙂
Hey, Chris! You will be amazed at the transformation as you become more aware of the world within. The world without is a reflection of the world within, and as we become more aware of the world within, the world without changes. You’re doing great!!
Chris… so much HONESTY.
Love your post.
Just trust the process, and soon you master it!…
I believe you are on your path…Looking forward to following your journey.
“Unlocking The World Within With The Keys Of Habit!” Chris thank you.