This week if you felt a huge tremor shake under your feet, that wasn’t an earthquake….it was the huge piece of cement that fell off me and crashed to the ground! This is thanks to the aha moment that occurred when I re-listened to this weeks’ webinar. I don’t know how I missed it the first time around, but when I heard Mark talk about TRUST, how it is “the only currency that counts” and that it is built off of character which leads to self confidence….it hit me like a brick so hard that’s how the chunk of cement fell off!
Being a huge Billy Joel fan, some of the lyrics of “A Matter of Trust” started playing in my head and moved me in a way it never did before…..
“Now I know you’re an emotional girl
It took a lot for you to not lose your faith in this world.
Well, I can’t offer you proof
But you’re gonna face a moment of truth.
It’s hard when you’re always afraid.
You just recovered when another belief is betrayed.
So break my heart if you must.
It’s a matter of trust.”
I was moved to tears and I related to my inner child who lost faith not only in this world but in herself along the way, dusting herself off, to only be betrayed again
I realized that lack of trust is what I have been lacking and what has been getting in the way of me accomplishing my goals and completing my plan of action steps. I learned at a very young age not to trust; that people who are supposed to love and protect actually neglect and hurt. This bled into me not trusting anyone in my life and engaging in self-sabotaging behavior to the point where I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t trust myself to finish what I start; to do what I say I’m going to do; to be successful, etc. I realize now that this is the old blueprint / peptide addiction that I need to replace with my new blueprint. And it starts with me continuing the simple habits listed on my index cards and to PERSIST until I succeed!
I am resilient….I will persist…I will win