I title this blog as “when self is in control” because I dug deep to work on self control with the Franklin Makeover this week and yet my subconscious still found a way to drag me through the old blueprint. Ugh.
I caught myself smiling a lot at the beginning of this week. It’s funny, but there is such great energy in a smile. And that energy expands when you connect with someone else who smiles because you smiled at them. I love it.
It also feels like each moment of the day has a great opportunity to share a connection with others. I am definitely more aware of that connection when I smile and share good energy out in the world. I love it and when I feel it flowing I just want to be more kind, be more helpful and more productive with everyone as I go along.
This week my virtue to focus on was self control. And I experienced both ends of it… a lack of control and of being extremely in control.
It feels like my subconscious is still really testing me with how much control I have over my thoughts and behavior.
Even when I’ve done really well like I mentioned I did this week, after a few days I feel a huge drop in energy (like burnout) that whisks me to the other end of the spectrum and I have to push to stay focused or be run over by the burnout. The ups and downs are like being on a roller coaster.
I noticed on my high energy days, I was super positive and it was easy to make decisions and knock out tasks on my list. I admit I was not a very good guardian at the gate with my thoughts on the low energy days though.
The days when I let my old blueprint run the show and I feel all the feels of burnout, I was a mess. I lost my patience easily, I got angry with my children and I didn’t do what I said I was going to do.
I finally got fed up with the old blueprint pushing me around after feeling down and out and I opened up my notebook and drafted a new version of DMP that aligns with more of what I want to accomplish this year. It felt amazing to script it out and submit it!
This proves that when I choose to be in control I CAN do what I say I promised to do.