This week I noticed a new tendency in me. This came as a surprise. I found myself checking every thought going on in my head. To my surprise there is too much negativity in there.
I have struggled all day because I couldn’t believe what’s going on there. It’s scary and at the same time there’s this kind voice in me that says I should keep on pushing.
Not easy but I promise to do it anyway. Did I not say I always keep my promise this morning?
After almost a week of checking my thoughts, I have to admit that this may be the hardest work in the world, probably because I am learning this after years of bad habits. Years spent at school and university seem wasted compared to this new teaching I am involved in.
If only someone took the time to teach this when I was younger, I believe my life could have been different. But anyway, let me focus on what is ahead as I have a feeling that this is taking me places.
When I started writing this blog, I needed to choose between talking about the change that is happening bit by bit inside of me or about the no TV experience.
I think I will just talk about both. I don’t how but the no TV experience has been easier than expected for me. As my wife likes to say, I am a kind of addicted to TV, especially sports and politics. To my surprise, all this week not even once I felt the need to watch it. I didn’t even miss it.
So, I wonder if this also is the result of this Hannel thing. I like the experience because it shows that I am taking back my freedom from the world without, while focusing more and more on the world within where all power lies. This is great.