I found myself observing an experience that happened to me this week that I honestly was amazed at my response. I’ve recently embarked on a new journey in my work and it is something that I was very excited to learn about, master, and create as it will allow me to do things that I’ve always wanted to do. It also allows me to use my creativity in my work that I’ve never really been able to apply anywhere else.
I have been on this new venture for a month and a half at this point and I’ve been happy with the progress I made so far. A big part of my business has to do with online marketing and more specifically, creating ads on google. I woke up one day this week to find that my account had been suspended. Now a frustration comes with something like this especially when you are not told specifically what it is you have done wrong to warrant a suspension.
What to do? The thing that really surprised me was my reaction to seeing that statement in my account. I’m the type of person that, in the past, people would consider me a bit of a hothead. As much as I hate to admit it, I was the type that was a complainer – why is this happening to me, this is so unfair, life sucks, and on and on and on. I can’t say that I ever enjoyed being that way and looking back I realize I even made the excuse that – I can’t help it, this is how I am and there’s nothing I can do to change it. I didn’t realize how truly miserable I really was and that was simply because I chose to be that way.
The immediate reaction (or lack there of) due to my account being suspended, revealed to me just how far I have come. Here is something that prevents me from bringing in money every second that I am suspended, yet here I was completely reading this and I found myself completely at peace. No panic, no worry, no anger, and absolutely no complaining about how unfair this was. I simply chuckled at the situation and thought to myself, okay what’s the next step, what do I have to do to rectify this situation and get myself back on track?
I am still in the process of getting this figured out but I must admit there is quite a bit of pride in myself reflecting on the progress I have made in something I honestly didn’t believe could be changed about the way I was. Relief is probably the best word I can come up with that describes how I feel. Anger can be such a dangerous emotion in us and unfortunately we often don’t realize the damage it is doing inside of us. Remaining calm, you have much more control and with that control comes a peace that allows you to shine the brightest when you need to. Peace be the Journey!